This blog started as a place where I shared recipes and creative stuff. Which I made in our two homes in France. It was based on a dream we had, of a life that was supposed to be very different from what it actually became.

Which has been a general theme, in our life the past 17+ years.

We can have as many worldly dreams and plans as we like, but oftentimes things end up changing in a radically different direction and nothing turns out quite as we expected.

Which is exactly what happened in our life, we had a dream of a life lived in two houses in France. One in the North and one in the South and that dream was completely and utterly shattered 3 years ago. There are still two houses, but we can’t live in them because our ideas about life are significantly different from the direction that France (my second home country) has gone in.

It has taken several years to fully understand that our 13-year long adventure in France is done with! Even though we have done everything in our power to hold onto it. We have continued to fix up the houses, thrown more and more money into them, I have continued making my skincare products, etc. Even though we constantly felt a strange whispering inside, that truth telling wind from the movie “Chocolat”. It had been breathing down our necks for years with an echoing message (You have to leave).

Despite our dream being doomed, back in the summer of 2022 when our lifestyle was made illegal. We still tried to find a way out of it, but we just weren’t able to.

We have felt extremely split in two, hurt and at the same time we have struggled to find a solution in the midst of an impossible situation. Meanwhile, I tried to do what I could to write useful posts about our from scratch lifestyle and make good products.

But it is no longer sustainable, none of us can do it anymore. It’s tiring to try to hold on to something that has slipped out of your hands like an eel.

And… all of this, simply because we don’t want to live like the majority.

We are not what you would call a normal family (whatever that means), for us it means that we live differently from the majority. We home school our children, we cook proper food from scratch, we have many opinions about worldly freedom and they don’t fit into the narrative that most people have received with their mother’s milk (or bottle).

Our ideas of a valuable life is based on faith, love, closeness and integrity.

We are people not just numbers in a system, we are souls that need to be nourished and not starved by empty consumption. Our freedom does not lie in worldly things, but in Jesus and in the fact that in our worldly lives we can make decisions all by ourselves, as long as we do not harm others.

When I grew up I assumed that was how it was, I thought responsibility was something we had to embrace and take into our own hands, but then I discovered that wasn’t how this world was run and the question remains, was it ever like that?

However, that does not change how we perceive the world. We have integrity and we have an idea of what we wish to engage in and what we don’t want to engage in.

There are limits to what a system should be able to do and control. Currently the system seems to have a very big idea of itself and its abilities, there are almost no limits to what the system thinks it can and should do. That is why we are not at all interested in participating in that kind of system and it has been many years since we lost our faith and trust in that system.

For us it just means one thing, we don’t want to participate and that means we have to live a different life because we don’t fit in. But we still want to be respected for our choices, which we believe are completely natural and if others are to be respected for being a part of the system and doing what they want, then I think it goes both ways?

I have no urge to pressure others to live the way we do, basically I have no opinions on what other people do, as long as they don’t try to push it down on our lives.

Unfortunately, our life has become much more complicated than we ever expected. Which can be hard to understand when you walk around and think that you are a free individual. But when you step out of the matrix that most people still find themselves in. When you do things that don’t fit into the mould of the established system, you start to experience a lot of resistance from people around you and from the system that taught you that you were free.

We have experienced abuse from our closest Danish family and also from the Danish system. Only because we chose to take care of our own children. The system believes that it should decide what is right for us, which is much more than we expect. In recent years, there have only been more restrictions on individual freedom and more legal changes that have meant that we can no longer live the life we ​​want here in France or Europe. We don’t have any interest in violating laws in any country and we do not want to live our lives in a place that is so rigid and inhumane as we experience the system here in France has become. So we have to give it up, as our integrity and hearts do not allow it anymore. We have to leave behind two houses that were bought and paid for and yes, despite we know we will have to let go of all our worldly goods, sooner or later. It still hurts a little in our worldly hearts.

This is the second time we have experienced losing everything in our lives and it is extremely exhausting on so many levels. Having to live a life crisscrossing borders, where rootlessness still gets a hold of you sooner or later, even though we have always been able to find peace of mind in Jesus, peace in the world still means a lot to us humans. Having a home means a lot to our whole family and that is why it is sad, most of all because we cannot find a solution that does not compromise us greatly, in one way or another.

We could also “just” put the children in school and make a U-turn a la Captain Fantastic and find our way back to the normal world, right? Or no, we just couldn’t, because that is not who we are, we love the life where we are together, where we learn together and where we experience the days to their full length and at our own pace, where we have the presence of each other and can find each other without text messages and car trips to and from. Where a call with the voice is enough to find a beloved hand. So no, that tragic Captain Fantastic ending, will not be ours and that means we have to break up our life again.

So it will be the places we have to give up and not our integrity. We still have to give up everything here on earth sooner or later as we all know. Which is something that we have trained greatly in our lives. As I said earlier, it is not the first time we have lost everything we own, it is not something I would wish on others, but it is what it is, our souls are more important than our homes and our things. You can handle things, really terrible things, when you get your strength from God.

Only God will know where we are headed. We chose to follow his plan 10 years ago, it is a completely different plan than the one we had ourselves, but we learn something from everything we go through and we find both peace and strength in Jesus, who in truth teaches us what it means to save up for life in heaven rather than life here on earth.

Where this blog is heading is a good question. We will be traveling a lot now and I will be writing more of my thoughts and sharing less of what I do and make. The blog must and should be a place where I can get rid of both my thoughts and my creativity.

Not just a place where you can tap information that I have spent hours creating, writing and sharing. It must be the full package and not just what looks delicious and beautiful.

Our lives are much more than that and when I only share what is practical, beautiful and delicious, it becomes empty to me and that equals fewer posts.

So even though I love creating “from scratch” recipes, products and taking pictures and sharing it all; so others may find joy from it. I also just need to write sometimes. Writing means a lot to me, whether what I write will be of any help to others, is difficult to say. But I do believe there is a reason why I write the things I do.

One thing is for sure, The Holy Food Co. is a small “authentic” home for my thoughts and creative ideas. Whether we will find a new home in the real world, or not. Only time will tell and you will only find out by reading along.

Thanks for stopping by & have a blessed day!

P.S. You might wonder, why we call it The Holy Food Co. Well… It was actually our 4 year old daughter who came up with the name, during our last trip to the states, we usually shopped our groceries at Whole Foods. One day when we had to go shopping our daughter said “are we going to Holy Foods mom?” and she just kept calling it Holy Foods ever since, so when I had to translate my Danish blog to this one, we decided to call it The Holy Food Co., not because we are making holy foods, but because it was too cute to miss out on!